Well right now as I am typing this I am coughing up a lung. I am sick and can barely talk, I kind of sound like a 12 year old boy going through puberty. Its very unfortunate. Anyways I have had a lot on my mind lately, and one of the things that has been on my mind is who my real friends are. I've been observing my friends a lot and the way they make me feel, the way they treat me, and how I am acting in result of hanging out with them. In this observation I realized that the people I call my bestfriends really are not anywhere near being my bestfriend. Yes, we laugh a lot together but no, you do not treat me right you actually treat me like dirt. Yes, I am always there for you and always have been since day one ,but no you have not been there for me. People I just met like 2 months ago are there for me more than you are. Like what is this? I have also realized how much lying my "best friends" do towards me. Uh, last time I checked best friends do not lie to each other no matter the circumstance. I don't care how you think I am going to react to the truth, tell me the truth no matter what. Lying is and never was cool, I am terribly sorry to tell you this, but just because you lie to someone about something that happened you are not all of the sudden so very cool. True friends do not lie to one another and they do not treat each other like dirt. Sorry, just had to vent about this, it has been on my mind for a while now. What is true friendship to you?